Speak Your Mind....

Sweet Bee's thought of the day: Speak Your Mind....

I learnt a very valuable lesson. I believe I have figured out why history is repeated itself. I have wondered for days why some people from the past came back into my life. God knows that I was feeling lonely and that I missed them (multiple people). I realize now that in everything and anything there is a lesson. I have always had a fear of speaking on people hurting, offending or doing "me" wrong. I feared that if I expressed how I felt disrespected that they would (for lack of better word) stop being my friend or stop loving me. So I held my tongue and feelings in, and left it in God's hands.

Then something changed one day. I felt disrespected and I choose to speak on it. I was so hurt by an action this person did that I addressed the particular issue. Just as I suspected in addressing the issue, they stop communicating with me entirely and never even addressed the issue. I ended up doubted myself again.

This hurt and left me confused because in no way in the message was I trying to be hurtful or point a finger, I was just bringing to their attention that they had offended /hurt me. I thought our friendship was stronger than that, but never the less it happened.

It brought me back to the fear of speaking my mind/heart when I have been offended/hurt. The result always left me empty or having to deal with a loss of a friendship or relationship. I came across a poem by Alicia Keys that summed up perfectly how I felt. The poem is entitled "P.O.W" (Prisoner of Words). It is like she took all my thoughts and fears and put them into words.

But why is it that when you speak the shortcoming of others, that the end results is a broken friendship or someone getting hurt? A lot of the times it is only a miscommunication or misunderstanding that can be rectified my communicating those feelings. This also had me thinking, does that mean a lot of friendships and relationships are shallow? Anytime there is trouble waters people abandon ship?

I have a deep respect for true friend that didn't hold her tongue. I did something to her that she was not happy about and she brought it to my attention. To me it was a lack of communication and a misunderstanding, but never the less it affected both of us. She said her view and I said mine but in no way did I feel it was meant to hurt me or make me feel like less of a person. She was not attacking or accusing me she was just speaking her heart out of love.  She made me realize what true friendship and love is all about.

I now realize why I had to go around this mountain again. I am very much guilty too and I am not judging anyone. Just like Jesus said in John 8:7 "... "If any one of you is without sin, let him be the first to throw a stone at her." I had to learn a valuable lesson. I am grateful God took me through this lesson and sent me the right people to show me the different levels, no matter how much it hurt.

I can only apologize for what I know I did. Most of the time the person that offended/hurt you doesn't even know they offended/hurt you. But if you have true love in your heart for them and think they have true love for you, you should be free to speak your truth. For only the truth will set you free. A lot of the times it is the devil just trying to separated and isolate you.

For what it's worth I am sorry I ever offended/hurt you.

1 Corinthians 13

Love

 ¹If I speak in the tongues of men and of angels, but have not love, I am only a resounding gong or a clanging cymbal. ²If I have the gift of prophecy and can fathom all mysteries and all knowledge, and if I have a faith that can move mountains, but have not love, I am nothing. ³If I give all I possess to the poor and surrender my body to the flames, but have not love, I gain nothing. 

⁴Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. ⁵It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. ⁶Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. ⁷It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.

 ⁸Love never fails. But where there are prophecies, they will cease; where there are tongues, they will be stilled; where there is knowledge, it will pass away. ⁹For we know in part and we prophesy in part, ¹⁰but when perfection comes, the imperfect disappears. ¹¹When I was a child, I talked like a child, I thought like a child, I reasoned like a child. When I became a man, I put childish ways behind me. ¹²Now we see but a poor reflection as in a mirror; then we shall see face to face. Now I know in part; then I shall know fully, even as I am fully known.

¹³And now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love.