I assume you're on my page cause you know me, would like to know me, find me interesting lol, or just nosey. This post is sneak peek to my Special Lifeday. Some may already know but most of  don't. On June 19th, 2006 life as I knew it changed. I would've never known that I could have a stroke at such a young age. I always say it was a blessing in disguise. God was trying to get my attention and move me in a different direction to heal me. However at the time I didn't see it as that. I learned who my true friends were by losing a lot (I'm so grateful for the ones who were by my side in the hospital and during my recovery).  I lost almost everything. I had limited mobility on the left side of my body. This all led to a major depression. 

Despite how I felt God was working on me. I was given the opportunity to relocate to Miami. I only knew two people at the time. It was not an easy transition. Though I was feeling better healthwise I was lonelier than I've ever been in my entire life. God continue to work on me. Still in the depression, I distance myself from the people that love me but were far away. Missing them hurt me. I've never been one to talk on the phone much so not be able to see them was difficult. So to avoid the pain I kept myself extremely busy,  as I always do. Before I knew it one day turned into week, which turned into a month and that turned into a year. Then all of a sudden many years pass by without speaking with them. At the time I didn't realize that to was also a form of depression, I don't want to bother people or even worry them with what I was going through. I had made a decision in my heart that I rather be able to live life by relocating then be a vegetable (with limited mobility) where I was comfortable. I know God was working on me and I knew this was where I needed to be. But I didn't know why nor could I explain it. People couldn't understand my decision and the vision God gave me because it wasn't given to them. Out of love and concern they would try to talk me out what God was telling me to do. I know my distancing myself hurt them and it was never intentionally. Same understood and continued to loved me anyway but others didn't. I still pray for forgiveness and hope one day they understand because it was never deliberate to hurt them. 

After a few years God blessed me with a support system and family who adopted and supported me in my growth. They taught me a lot of lessons especially how to love without conditions cause that's all I was used to. I felt that people only love me for what I could do or what I give them. They taught me that I can be love just for being me. I became less of a people pleaser and more focused on pleasing God.  I also learned how to love myself. Most of the lessons were not all joyful, I definitely went through a lot of tests and trials through the years. But I will forever be grateful. I'm far from where I need to be but I've come a long way. I've had a few scares because live with migraines due to low air pressure but for the most part I've been healthy. I'm sharing this because I hope it can bless someone. Only a handful of people knew what happened out of fear of being treated differently. But I'm opening up about it so I can encourage someone who may be discouraged or going through something or even maybe depressed. God is always in control despite how do you may feel at the current time or what your situation looks like. So I celebrate June 19th as my Lifeday. I was born on Dec 27th but on June 19th I was given yet another chance at life. Therefore I celebrate the blessing every year. Don't take yours for granted!